Wild is the Blue by Cecilia Randell

Author:Cecilia Randell [Randell, Cecilia]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2019-05-24T16:00:00+00:00

On the transport home, silence fell between them once more. Usually, Elaina was there, chatting and drawing both of their attention. Today, Blue was left alone with her thoughts—an all too infrequent occurrence.

Duri was correct. While he didn’t say it in so many words, she needed to sort her shit before tomorrow. Blue leaned her head back into the gray leather of her seat and turned to stare out the window.

So where was this anger coming from?

Yes, the Boss was an ass. Bosses were sometimes asses, though, and she’d have to learn to deal.

Yes, Mo’ata should have handled the situation better when it came to telling them about the assignment, but he honestly didn’t do anything wrong. Except maybe act like the world was falling before we even got there and freaked me out. He’d apologized for all of that already.

Yes, the assignment came at a horrible time. But, if she were honest, she was excited for it. It would be her first time being deliberately in the field. If anyone had the right to be angry, it was be Mo’ata. This violated their agreement that she would not be in the field until she “knew the language and could hold her own in a fight.” She was only part of the way there.

All the reasons she had listed to herself before, when she examined them now, only generated a mild annoyance, if that. They really weren’t why she was angry.

Blue dug deep.

Under that annoyance, she was mad. She was furious. She wanted to rage and throw things, maybe hit a wall or two or twenty. She wanted to fire round after round into the practice dummy at the Academy’s target range. She wanted to take one of the kitchen knives and wildly chop an opi root into minuscule pieces. She wanted to climb on Beast’s back and ride with abandon until they were both exhausted.

It was a huge ball of rage that she managed to push down over the last four days because… it wasn’t directed at anything. It just was.

And it started when she saw that photo of Felix.

“I feel like I’m being used,” she said. Not really to Duri, but she needed to say the words aloud, and he was there. She kept her gaze on the blur of grey and green as the transport wizzed through Tremmir. “I feel like I’m being used, but more than that, I feel like Felix is being used. By me, by the Boss, by his family, by his ex. By everyone. And you know what he wants more than anything?”

Duri shook his head.

“He wants a simple fucking life, with someone to love him that he can love back. That’s it. That’s all he wants. It’s why he hates mentioning exactly who his father is. He doesn’t want to deal with all the… political maneuvering that comes with it. And what are we doing? We’re throwing him right into it, for the sake of an assignment.” Her heart pounded as she spoke, and her jaw tightened until it was a chore to force the words through stiff lips.

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